I hate this feeling of missing something…

This story has no relation to the movie “Forgetting Sarah Marshall”. This is an actual event happened not too long ago. This is based from a true story. The name of the person has been altered to protect their identity.

Have you ever been in a situation where you’re completely clueless and dumbfounded at the same time? One minute she was all over you and the next she gives you the silent treatment. WTF?

I met Farah during her visit to the office. She and her classmates from a local university came to do a study on the company I’m working with. A few days later she added me on facebook. We exchanged messages but it was purely work/study related.

A few months after I bumped into her in a club in Kuala Lumpur. We hit it off easy and then later had supper together with her friends. Soon after that we started exchanging SMS. I kinda like the flow of how things are going so I would call her on the way back from work or call her while she drives home all the way to Klang. We were getting to know each other.

We had our first kiss after watching our first movie when I walked her to her car. I’m not sure if I’m ready to take it to the next level but I’m gonna play it cool. One day she asked if it’s okay for her to change her status on facebook to being in a relationship with me. I said let’s not do that just yet. I’m not sure if this was a wise answer.

So to cut the story short. One day her handphone was turned off. The only way to get in touch with her was to go online. So I went online and there I saw her status. It was as if the message was delivered directly to me. It says, “I’m so sorry. I’m just not ready.”

I SMS her saying that I saw her status and I told her that I don’t understand but I think I can. She then replied saying that she’s happier being single with her friends (who by the way are not single). My last message to her was “It was a pleasure knowing you, Farah Idham. You take care”.

The moral of the story is simple. Never date someone who use their friends as an excuse. No, that was not what I meant. I think relationship works better when both party talks to one another. Being ready or not means we shouldn’t rush into things. The least we could do is to take things slower.

It’s probably too late now. I deleted her contact and her pictures from my phone. I don’t want to to call her suddenly when I’m out drinking with friends. Problem is, I remember her number by heart. FML.

p/s- I think I should delete her from my friends list. I’m afraid I might stalk her. LOL…