Have you ever been in a situation where you’re completely clueless and dumbfounded at the same time? One minute she was all over you and the next she gives you the silent treatment. WTF?

I met Farah during her visit to the office. She and her classmates from a local university came to do a study on the company I’m working with. A few days later she added me on facebook. We exchanged messages but it was purely work/study related.

A few months after I bumped into her in a club in Kuala Lumpur. We hit it off easy and then later had supper together with her friends. Soon after that we started exchanging SMS. I kinda like the flow of how things are going so I would call her on the way back from work or call her while she drives home all the way to Klang. We were getting to know each other.

We had our first kiss after watching our first movie when I walked her to her car. I’m not sure if I’m ready to take it to the next level but I’m gonna play it cool. One day she asked if it’s okay for her to change her status on facebook to being in a relationship with me. I said let’s not do that just yet. I’m not sure if this was a wise answer.

So to cut the story short. One day her handphone was turned off. The only way to get in touch with her was to go online. So I went online and there I saw her status. It was as if the message was delivered directly to me. It says, “I’m so sorry. I’m just not ready.”

I SMS her saying that I saw her status and I told her that I don’t understand but I think I can. She then replied saying that she’s happier being single with her friends (who by the way are not single). My last message to her was “It was a pleasure knowing you, Farah Idham. You take care”.

The moral of the story is simple. Never date someone who use their friends as an excuse. No, that was not what I meant. I think relationship works better when both party talks to one another. Being ready or not means we shouldn’t rush into things. The least we could do is to take things slower.

It’s probably too late now. I deleted her contact and her pictures from my phone. I don’t want to to call her suddenly when I’m out drinking with friends. Problem is, I remember her number by heart. FML.

p/s- I think I should delete her from my friends list. I’m afraid I might stalk her. LOL…

But my spirit was…

Images courtesy of Abraham Alexander. Thanks dude.

The Day World Went Away

Anger. Fury. Rage. A familiar feeling? I know. I go through it too. Sometimes you feel down especially when you can’t do anything about it. You bottled it inside and swallow hard every time it gets to you. You feel like shit. So what do you do when shit happens?

Which religion are you? Lol…

You have to release the tension your system. And laughter is always a good medicine. Enjoy a good laugh by browsing through funny websites or watch some comedy. Works for me.

You could pamper yourself with a quick trip for a body massage. I was fortunate enough to be have gotten a free 1/2 hour back message. It made my day. If you’re attached, why not ask your other half to give you a back rub. Don’t know how? Learn! How? Google it.

Deal with it! If you can’t do anything about it, do something about it. Try work your way around it. It won’t get you anywhere whining about it out loud and throwing your tantrums. Which eventually will get the best of you.

Take a break. Got for a holiday in the island. I wish I was in Pulau Perhentian. I’ve never been there. I heard the water is crystal clear and you can see baby sharks swimming right under you at the snorkeling site.

Or you can talk to someone. Every now and then you need a shoulder to cry on. Find someone with a good listening ear. If you have no one to talk to then listen to music. Music is always good for the soul. I used to jam with my friends after college. It was a great screaming my lungs out to Metallica’s Seek And Destroy.

Don’t keep it bottled up in you. Life is short. Make the best out of each and every day ahead of you.

p/s- I heard (s)excersing is great to release the tension in the body. Haha.. Selamat berpuasa to all my Muslim friends. Cheers!

Am I not destroying my enemies when I make friends of them?
Abraham Lincoln

Hate must make a man productive. Otherwise one might as well love.
Karl Kraus

When you know a thing, to hold that you know it; and when you do not know a thing, to allow that you do not know it – this is knowledge.
Confucius

Me only have one ambition, you know. I only have one thing I really like to see happen. I like to see mankind live together.. black, white, Chinese, everyone.. that’s all.
Bob Marley

Origin:
1675–85; dis- 1 + gruntle, freq. of grunt

dis·grun·tle (dĭs-grŭn’tl) Pronunciation Key
tr.v. dis·grun·tled, dis·grun·tling, dis·grun·tles
To make discontented.

[dis- + gruntle, to grumble (from Middle English gruntelen, frequentative of grunten, to grunt; see grunt).]
dis·grun’tle·ment n.

Disgruntle

Dis*grun”tle\, v. t. To dissatisfy; to disaffect; to anger. [Colloq.]

disgruntle

verb
put into a bad mood or into bad humour; “The employees were disgruntled by their bad working conditions”

disgruntle
1682, from dis- “entirely, very” + obs. gruntle “to grumble,” frequentative of grunt (q.v.).

Need I say more?

Taken from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/disgruntle

Me: Kasi saya roti empat segi satu. Tak mau minyak ok…
Mamak: Ok…

5 minutes later…

Mamak: Boss, ini roti canai baru.. takde minyak
Me: Hello? Saya mau roti empat segi la…
Mamak: Ini sama la.. baru buat.. takde minyak..
Me: Sure or not baru buat? Bukan pagi punya? Tapi saya mau roti empat segi!!
Mamak: Ini baru buat punya.. takde minyak… *walks away*

WTF? I’m sure all of you have had similar experience. Kan?

Happy New Year. It’s been ages since I last blog…

Random short talk

Friend: Who did you come with?
Me: Just me and her.
Friend: Oh.. are you dating her?
Me: No. We’re just friends.
Friend: Are you f*cking her?
Me: No. We’re just friends.
Friend: You’re f*cking her right? (showing the dirty sign)
Me: #$*($#&..

Say what?! Hish…

My domain expired and the whole renewal was a real bitch! First my domain/hosting vendor didn’t remind me about the expiry date. And second, I didn’t get to backup all my files before moving to a new server.

Thank god I was able to connect to my ftp via IP and manage to download all my files on my laptop. Also, I could connect to my control panel to backup my wordpress database. Once my new hosting is set up, all I did was upload it to the server and created a new sql using the backup.

I was worried that wordpress would not work properly since all I did was just manual backup. But by changing the settings on the wp-setting.php, I was able to get back my blog in no time. It was a piece of cake.

And I didn’t have any problem getting my download counter to work again. All I did was created the subdomain on the new control panel and uploaded all the files in the folder. And everything was left as it was. No problem. Thank god!

I’m gonna start to blog again. *cross fingers* I have so many things to write but I just don’t know where to start. So maybe this will be the start of a new beginning.

furizu.net is now 4 years old and I hope it stays with me longer. The next step for me to do is to transfer the domain to the new hosting company so that I will have more control. Yeah!

p/s- I have put all my theme design on hold until further notice. I found out there is a bug on Themes Creator 3.29. Am looking for the older version.

p/s/s- Did you know I accidentally formatted my old HDD because I was so excited to install Ubuntu? I had all my installers in that harddisk. FUCK!

p/s/s/s- My new server is so much faster and I have much bigger space compared to old one. I like!!

1. You sent her a lengthy sms and all you get as a reply was a
2. You call her and she said she’ll call you back. And she never does.
3. You make plans to see her after work. When it’s time to go, she tells you maybe some other time.
4. You have been planning to watch a movie together. It’s been more than a year already.
5. She says she’s busy. When you find out it’s her day off, you called her only to find out she has other plans.

But hey! I’m no expert on this. It’s best to ask her and find out yourself.

Hmmm…

Me: Pa, let’s go to Singapore.
Dad: Singapore? What’s there in Singapore?
Me: I don’t know, I’ve never been there. Let’s go and check it out la…
Dad: There’s nothing in Singapore lah… Buat apa gi sana?
Me: !@#$*

School holiday 1994

Me: Pa, let’s go to Singapore.
Dad: What’s there in Singapore?
Me: Let’s check out the Singapore Sales! I heard it’s cheap…
Dad: Sama jer kat sini. Plus ada apa kat Singapore?
Me: !@#$*

School holiday 1995

Me: Pa, jom la gi Singapore…
Dad: Buat apa? There’s nothing there…
Me: Alaaaa… Jom laa…
Dad: Buat apa? There’s nothing there!
Me: !@#$*

School holiday 1996

Dad: Fariz, let’s go to Singapore.
Me: Buat apa? There’s nothing there…
Dad: Oi! Awak jugak yang nak pergi dulu..
Me: But you said there is nothing there right?
Dad: !@#$*!!!
Me: No thanks. I’m going camping with the boys!
Dad: !@#$*!!!

After hearing the same answer each time. I finally got the hint!

Ok. Ok. I get it already.

Happy Merdeka everyone.

p/s- Can you take a hint?